Dance with My Father- Luther Vandross
Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocenceMy father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I'd love, love, loveTo dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream
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I just heard this song played in the radio. Everytime I listen to it, it reminds me of my childhood. The cheerful n happy childhood. Nothing to worry. Just play and play. Nagging mom and dad. Angry if my wish not fulfilled. Laughing noisily if I'm happy, crying loudly if I'm sad. I miss those times. The beauty of childhood. The innocence.
Sometimes I miss my mom. If I could turn back time, I wanna thank her and tell her that I love her. But people usually only treasure something much better when they have lost it, don't they? Well, I just hope one day she can see me from somewhere and be proud to have me as her daughter. That this is me, the daughter she has taken care of and has now become "somebody". That all the things she has done to me is never wasted. I know the journey to be that "somebody" is still long, and I'm still walking in the midst of it.
Okay... now updates of my recent life. Vacation already started since last week. Already started my HYP, but I dunno yet which topic I'm gonna research on. My supervisor has thought of 3 areas (m-commerce, virtual community, online shopping) but he hasn't decided yet which one is for me. Hopefully it's decided soon so I can start doing proper research, instead of looking at scattered ideas. My friends are going back to their hometown this week. I wanna go home too! But I think I can only go back next month. I wanna play with my baby brother n sister, wondering how they look like now. Usually babies grow very fast. And I wonder if they still recognize me haha. I'm soooo looking forward to go home.
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